All Ways Waiting

Still no (t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:2s)[[dream->dream]]. <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/sleep.png?w=1024">

It's been so long since even a bad (t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:2s)[[dream->Wake]].

It's a day off from work, but fuck! There's a lot of shit to do. I'm so tired... [[Get up]] [[Look at phone]] [[Try to sleep a little more]] [[Think about things]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/groggy.png?w=1024">

10:10am. (Change time each time you look at it) Oh man. That was like 4 hours of sleep. Of course it'd be a on my weekend. (Erase this text after reading) [[Check Facebook]] [[Instagram]] [[Check Amazon]] [[Check Email]] [[Check texts]] [[Look at the news]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/phone.png?w=1024">

There we go. Just gotta curl up like this, press my head between these pillows (t8n-depart:"slide-left")+(t8n-arrive:"slide-right")+(t8n-time:2s)[[and->and]]

You think about all the shit you have to do. Doctors appointment, grocery shopping, online class, laundry and calling Ted, who's been suicidal lately. What a fuckin' day. [[Dread]] [[Worry]] [[Move on]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/eye-crust.png?w=1024">

Just a few more minutes. I'm so fucking tired. What was that? 5 hours?? Ughg.. [[Look at phone]] [[Try to sleep a little more]] [[Think about things]] (if:visits >= 3)[[Sit up and rub eyes]] (after:120s)[[breakfast]] (after:90s)[[Sit up and rub eyes]]

Every day lately. I just cant catch a break. [[Worry]] [[Look at phone]] [[Get up]] [[Try to sleep a little more]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/dread.png?w=1024"> [[Deepen Dread]]

Oh man, i hope the bus isnt late again. I miss having a car. I bet the places are gonna be really busy today. [[Worry more]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/dread.png?w=1024">

Then tomorrow, i have to work and then finish project 2. Oh man, tomorrow is going to suck. [[Dread]] [[Worry]] [[Move on even more]] <im src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/dreamin.png?w=1024">

Then this weekend is just work and homework. Rent next week. Renew my tags, because theres no way i can do that today. Shit, i forgot to text rebecca back. also gotta call to continue my EBT na dsetup a dentist appointment.. Oh man the next couple weeks are gonna be rough. [[Gotta get it done]] [[Dread]] [[Worry]] https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/eye-crust.png?w=1024

Not today. I have enough shit on my plate. [[Dread]] [[Worry]] [[Get up]]

And i just cannot (t8n-depart:"slide-down")+(t8n-arrive:"slide-up")+(t8n-time:1.5s)[[sleep->Sleep]].. [[try harder]] [[Get up]] [[Look at phone]] [[Think about things]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/down.png?w=1024"

(t8n-time:2s)[[fuck->horny]]. I cant stop thinking about that birds of paradise graphic novel i want to write.

A (text-colour:red)[sensation] comes over you. Theres probably one (t8n-depart:"pulse")+(t8n-time:2s)[[thing->thing]] that can help you sleep a little more.. <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/bump.png?w=1024">

I told myself i wouldnt do that as much. Especially after.. Oh man, that would be nice though. Maybe.. [[Look at phone]] [[Think about things]] [[Get up]] [[Think about a wife and family someday]] [[Get up..]]

I need to maintain pure intentions. [[Purify]] [[Desecrate]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/dreamin.png?w=1024">

I'm such a piece of shit. [[Dreader]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/dread.png?w=1024">

You think of a beautiful loving sweet wife. She plays JRPG's with you, laughs and dances like a horse. Her eyes fill you with hope and after a day making art and playing around, you make sweet love trying to make a baby. The fantasy is fulfilling, but you fill in the blurry wife with toxic exes made reformed and lady friends you wish were more. You throw a celebrity in there and a couple taboo options. You come back to that girl at the party years ago though. She had such pretty hair. So much light in her artsy writer eyes. I'd love to make her my wife. [[Hit her up]] [[Message an ex]] [[Text back the crazy chick from a few weeks ago]] [[Think about girls]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/dreamin.png?w=1024">

I'm such a loser. Who even cares what i do. Fuck it! Fuck everything. Let me just be happy. Shitty sleep, no money, no girl, no life worth livng..I may as well.. [[Get nasty]] [[Cry a little]] [[Get high in the morning and forgoe all responsibilities for the day]] [[Look at phone]] [[Think about things]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/dreadest.png?w=1024">

I've been sullied. I may as well just fucking (t8n-depart:"blur")+(t8n-arrive:"blur")+(t8n-time:2.5s)[[die->die]]. I hope God still loves me. Oh man.

I'm sad, but not that sad. [[Try to get sadder]] [[Think happy thoughts]]

You remember how paranoid you got last week. Maybe we should wait til 8.

(enchant:?page,(bg:(hsl:0,0,0,0.45)))(t8n-depart:"dissolve")+(t8n-arrive:"dissolve")+(t8n-time:3s)+(text-style:"blurrier")[[Dreams->Dreamless]]

Everyone is doing so well. Kids, careers, houses, wives. Fuck, my life sucks, Oh hell yeah! That anime looks dope! Theres no way the president ate a baby. She's so hot. Man, that dude is so cringe. I'm glad i'm not like that. What an idiot. Stop getting back together with that dumb bitch. [[Post a shitty motivational quote]] [[Post a picture looking good from a few days ago]] [[Look at phone some more]]

My stuffs delayed. So much for a new sketchbook. Fuck!

Still nothing from the publishers i sent my childrens book to. Lots of spam. Maybe i should make spam and eggs for (t8n-time:2.5s)[[breakfast->breakfast]].

Group chat is texting about Pokemon again. Also a text from my mom. [[Post sexual joke about Mr. Mime to group chat]] [[Text Mom back and assure her, you're doing ok]]

"10,000 children murdered in Palestine in just one day. Why wont Hamas stop making Israel do this??" -CNN "President Trump eats a baby during campaign in Iowa." - MSNBC "10 ways you're probably going to die soon" - Buzzfeed News "Priest who molested 100,000 children in one year, given 2 year probation. harshest sentence in Catholic history." -Reuters "Trans babies are taking over." - Fox News "America goes bananas in Panama. Killing 5,000 Al Qaeda orphans in unfortunate accident." - SkyNews Why everything sucks and is scary and you're alone and fuck you! - CJTN [[Look at phone]] [[Cry a little]]

Why is my algorythm all twerking and scary surrealist art. [[Keep scrolling]] [[Check @cjt.x]]

She's dating some deuce and looks kind of sad. Soemday eh..

This is so stupid. What am i doing? She fucked me over. She put me in this shitty city and tiny shitty studio.. ..Fuck her! ..She sure did have a nice (t8n-depart:"rumble")+(t8n-time:2.5s)[[ass->Get nasty]] though

The last text was her bruised legs. She's weird about her legs. I wonder what happened to her. Probably something sexual. She scares me. [[Be reasonablly scared and back off]] [[Send a friendly casual 'Hey how's it goin?]] [[Be bold]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/bump.png?w=1024">

I love girls. Respectfully of course. I'm such a good person. Why wont any of them fuck me?? [[Lament selfishly]] [[Lament selflessly]] <im src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/dreamin.png?w=1024"> [[Get up]]

[[Roll Right]] [[Roll left]] [[Lay on stomach]] [[Lay on back]] [[Give up on sleep and get started on the day]]

My hip hurts. [[Roll left]] [[Lay on stomach]] [[Lay on back]]

My arms gonna fall asleep again, if i lay on this side. At least one part of me get's lots of sleep. [[Roll Right]] [[Lay on stomach]] [[Lay on back]]

This hurts my back. Ooph. [[Lay on back]] [[Roll Right]] [[Roll left]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/down.png?w=1024">

I've never been able to sleep on my back.. [[Get up]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/sleep.png?w=1024">

I dont really want to. [[Get up]]

You get about 40 minutes of weird sweaty anxious sleep. [[Wake]]

There's no fucking sausage or browns left. I cant just eat an egg for breakfast. I really need to get groceries. The bus has been really crowded though and late. Fuck, theres no time for at least a couple days. [[Get up]] [[Get sadder]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/eye-crust.png?w=1024">

BREAKFAST!!! [[Get up]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/dreamin.png?w=1024">

I want a wife.. <im src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/dreamin.png?w=1024"> [[Get up]]

"~~Hey, hows it goin'?~~" ~~"What's up! Wanna hang out tonight?"~~ ~~"Thinkin' about you. I want you"~~ This is stupid. [[Get up]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/eye-crust.png?w=1024">

It's pretty cold in this apartment.. [[Get up]]

I am SUCH A GOOD PERSON! Why dont I have more?? I want the good life. What the fuck! Fuck all of this. [[Get high in the morning and forgoe all responsibilities for the day]] [[Text back the crazy chick from a few weeks ago]] [[Get nasty]] [[Cry a little]] [[Think happy thoughts]] [[Get up]]

Life just fucking sucks. Whatever, let's try to live abetter one. [[Get up]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/dreamin.png?w=1024">

This Voltaire quote should intrigue people and show them how witty i am. <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/dreamin.png?w=1024">

There. Maybe my ex will see it and be sad or maybe my crush will see it and hit me up or maybe...

I wish i didnt need a phone. Life was so much easier on the road. No phone, no rules, no bullshit. Just the open road and endless freedom. [[Get up]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/eye-crust.png?w=1024">

It's not my best, but it should get a couple laughs. [[Look at phone]]

This is hard to write. I'll just call her later. [[Look at phone]]

More furry shit. Yikes! [[Check out flood reels]] [[Scroll without control]] [[A social media narrative??]] [[Get up]]

(bg:navy)[Chapter Ooo] To be continued... Eventually.. Wait for it... Just a little longer... Almost there................... Be patient.

I'm still just so tired. [[breakfast]] [[Piss urgently]] [[Take a shit after some coffee]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/up.png?w=1024">

Chapter Hoowee To be continued... Eventually.. Wait for it... Just a little longer... Almost there................... Be patient.(enchant:?page,(bg:yellow))Your Text Here

Chapter Poo (text-colour:grey)+(bg:navy)[Your Text Here] To be continued... Eventually.. Wait for it... Just a little longer... Almost there................... Be patient.

Oh man, what if everything unravels again and i have to start over again, but living with my parents. Oh man, life is fickle and scary. I'm getting way too old to start over again. I'm getting way too old. Fuck, i'm almost 30.. <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/dreadest.png?w=1024"> [[Cry a little]] [[Look at phone]] [[Get up]]

I want to scream, but i'm just too tired. <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/dreadest.png?w=1024"> [[Get high in the morning and forgoe all responsibilities for the day]] [[Try to sleep a little more]] [[Look at phone]]

That's wild. I bet i could survive a flood. <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/dreamin.png?w=1024"> [[Get up]]

Natural disasters, abandoned buildings, butts, deformed children and increasingly distrubing avant garde shit. Is this who i am? [[Dread]] [[Get up]] [[Cry a little]] [[Scroll some deviant shit]]

Well since it's here, i may as well check it out. [[thing]]

I'm so fuckin nasty. [[Purify]] [[Desecrate]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/bump.png?w=1024">

I miss when i had tons of likes on stuff. I shouldnt of taken a break. Then again i did get banned a couple times. Whatever. Maybe i should post that circular dragon drawing. Nah..

I miss when i had tons of likes on stuff. I shouldnt of taken a break. Then again i did get banned a couple times. Whatever. Maybe i should post that circular dragon drawing. Nah.. <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/eye-crust.png?w=1024"> [[Get up]]

I'm a lonely broke fucked up artist. Ah man, it's too early for this shit. [[Cry a little]] [[Do some art]] [[Get high in the morning and forgoe all responsibilities for the day]] <img src="https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/dreadest.png?w=1024">

It's way too early for that. [[Get up]] https://cjtcircle.com/wp-content/uploads/2025/02/eye-crust.png?w=1024

Well, that is DRAWN out. https://www.instagram.com/p/Ba6G01KFFHV/?img_index=1